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In case I haven't mentioned it, I am due to fly back to the USA in a few weeks. Thankfully, it's only temporary... and I hate flying. I'm one of those nervous travelers who are so nervous about it, that I am randomly selected for searches pretty often. I think the main problem is that I can't do whatever I want for the duration of the flight. I think of all the things I need to do (or did I do those things?) when I'm in the air. A few days before I fly, I start dreaming of not having the right visa (though I don't need one to go to the USA and then back). I dream that I've left my passports at home and I'm stuck. It's a mess. I usually take antihistamines in order to make myself so drowsy that I can sleep.
Another thing that scares me is the fact that I have a big fear of getting sick while I am in the USA. As I tell my coworkers here, if they go there, make sure they look after themselves while they are there so they won't get sick. I've booked myself a doctor appointment a few days before I go to make sure my medications can get filled before I go. I haven't asked the doctor for medication to calm myself before I fly, but I think I will this time.
I'm also very nervous because I haven't booked a return ticket yet. I am so afraid I will be stuck there. I can't do much about it because, well, I'm short of money at the moment. So that has to wait, and the way the fares are... they'll just go up in the next couple of weeks. I think that it will be okay to spend that money because I do NOT want to stay in the USA. Work is here. Partner is here. House is here. Sausage dog is here. Too many things are here waiting for me. Plus, I love Australia.
Now, I've gotten that off my chest, I feel better. Flying anywhere doesn't make me excited. I have flown so many times and thought the exposure would make it easier. It doesn't. I still hate it. I hate airports. I hate feeling like I will be stranded if I don't hurry.
That's all for now. Take good care of yourselves!
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Hello everybody!
A few times, I start writing something here, but I didn't actually publish it. It's not really a big loss, honestly.
There's not much to say right now except that I've broken a bone in my toe and it's being very stubborn and not healing the way it should. It's not super painful, but it is annoying when I put any amount of weight on my small toe. I don't realise how much I actually USE that toe until I am walking around for over 15 hours a day.
This isn't really going to be all about my feet.
I'm a bit bummed out because getting my mom's passport isn't going as expected as I thought it would go. So she's passportless and I am supposed to leave in 6 weeks. I'm staying for a month, so I am hoping I can get that stuff sorted out soon.
So, yeah, nothing exciting here. No projects I'm working on. I should since I can't use my feet for anything fun--like walking, running, or getting back to the gym. (I swear that was going to happen this week.)
I'll catch you later!
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If you don't want to read something that is not very uplifting, then you probably will want to sit this one out. This is one of those gloomy blog entries that I sometimes do, you know, trying to make sense of things.
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Happy New Year to you, your family, and your friends.
Here's hoping that 2025 doesn't suck for anybody in that list.
It's back to work for me this weekend, so my time off was good enough, I guess. I didn't do anything special on NYE. In fact, I ended up by myself that night because my partner wanted to see fireworks. I generally hate people outside work, so I just let him go. It also sends him away because, this isn't a lie, 90% of our conversations involve complaining, whining, or something like that. It was a nice break, I have to say.
Anyway, I hope it's all going well for you! :) Until next time, folks!
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Christmas has already happened, so I hope your Christmas was happy, jolly and full of excitement. I worked all through Christmas, so the pay is nice. My partner spent most of his time with his family, which is fine. We attempted to do some shopping the day after, but his brother had other plans for him--ones that I dare not interfere with. So besides my time at work overnight, it's been a bit of a quiet one. That's fine. It's still really difficult for me to feel any Christmas spirit when it's not cold.
I'm not working New Year's Eve or New Year's Day and I'm not sure what the plan is. I'm contemplating showing up at the liquor store early this morning to pick up a few mixed drinks, but then again, alcohol is a big money drain here in Australia. It's certainly not something I need to enjoy the night.
Plans are also in full-swing to go back home (to the USA, for those who are unaware) in April and May. Slowly getting that together.
Now that I've bored you enough, I'm outta here. I've just been busy lately and taking a bit of time off right now before I through myself head-first into my career again.
Bye for now, everyone.
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Hello! This is going to be a very short one today since I'm working this weekend. I am suffering from stomach issues this weekend too but I need the money. Lots of visits to the toilet, but it's not uncontrollable. Since my childhood, I've always had a lot of health issues with my stomach so a lot of problems, I don't even acknowledge as problems anymore. I just get used to it. They're kind of irritating today, but I figure I can do a shift today since the money I make makess it worth it.
As I said, this isn't a long one. I will be back soon! I will be fine, just feel a bit 🤢
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There isn't much to say this weekend and I think that is okay. Over the past week, I didn't do much except sit around waiting for repairs to be done to the house, since my husband seems to think that I like to sit at home waiting on my days off. I'm still bitter about that, by the way...
This week is going to be a busy week for me and I am dreading it, but I have to earn money to do things like eat and pay for my car.
I'm still thinking how I would have loved to be in the USA with my family right now which was the original plan. Things didn't work out and now I am stressing over my planned trip this coming April-May. I really want to avoid a summertime trip over there. It's way too hot over there... humid too.
I'm stressed about that because I need to renew both my passports, pay for a ticket and my mom's ticket, and take time off from work. My only solution is to work more right now so I can go. We will see though.
Oh and my birthday was last weekend--but I'm not sure if I posted anything about that. It was quiet. I already feel old.
That's all for now. I hope the start of the month has been great.
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This weekend is my birthday weekend. Unfortunately, I haven't been feeling well. Gastrointestinal problems. Let's just leave it at that. I've been having every symptom of any good GI illness. Yeah...
The family I have in Australia and my husband are bringing me out for dinner tonight which is really nice--that is, if I felt well enough to eat without something unfortunate happening. I'm going to try to take some meds to keep it together.
My husband also tricked* me into driving to the cheesecake shop to pick up my cake. * - Disclaimer: I already knew what he was up to because I had picked the cake I wanted about a month ago. It's a caramel popcorn cheescake and it's sitting in the fridge. Maybe tomorrow I'll post a picture. It's a beautiful cake and it's so nice that I have a partner who remembers it. (I would wait to see whether my exes would remember - most did, some didn't.)
Husband's been pointing out that it seems like I am down and depressed but I have no energy to do anything and just want to chill out and do nothing. Hopefully tomorrow is that day. I feel like I've been so busy lately, but really, I haven't been that busy. My days off seem to pass so quickly. Maybe that's a perk of getting older.
So, yeah, hopefully I will feel better soon. I'm not entirely sure why I can't retain any food. It's a bummer. It's the reason why I am a bit down. Maybe I will be able to stomach some good food tonight.
I hope your start to December is fantastic. I'll catch you all later! :)